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i realli can't take it animore.. it's killing mi slowly.. talking to u makes mi happi but sad at the same time.. cuz so much happened n now we pretend as though we've jus known each other for a few days... it's realli hurting.. i'm gana break down again shit...!!!

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i realli miss uuuuuuuuu.........

y isn't it like last tym when everything around me was wonderful n bright.......

i can't help the tears rolling down my cheeks ryt now........

i realli can't help but listen to those songs u told mi to listen n i hate it how those songs bring back the old memories............

i realli can't go on like this........

i can't play this pretending game.......

pretending as though everything is alright when nth is right.........

i realli feel like shutting miself from this world....

shall i??? i guess it wud b much better n easy rather than suffering slowly like this....

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will i be able to ?? will i b able to live everyday pretending like it never happened??

2 yrs ago it broke n i was afraid. i decided not to break it again. i decided not to give it a chance at all. i was careful not to break it again. but it broke again. now i feel fragile. i feel lost. i feel broken. i feel emptiness inside me. i'm afraid of darkness now. i'm afraid to sleep alone in my bed. there used to b a time when i was always luking forward to my bedtime so i could hear ur voice... protective, calming...

n now i wake up in the middle of night cuz i can see u in my dreams, where u're leaving mi far behind...

i bet the fact tht m not crying big time whenever m alone is because we still talk. we talk normally. like normal ppl. we still talk a lot like we used to. but we jus tok as frens n not as couples. we both noe tht it's over. m hoping tht everything wud go back to normal but are u hoping the same thing??? or does this all depend on myself onli???

she's an optimist, she'll move on, she'll b able to forget all these, she's a sagittarius... ppl around mi says tht but no i dun think so... it's realli heartbreaking...