wht's this feeling ?? i noe i hab felt it before but it never lasted thisss long.. it has kept me thinking for daysss and nightsss now...
i know my own frens are angry and yet and yet, i can't do a single thing. i can't tell them the truth . wht has been bugging me so much lately. n wht happened to the old rupa who could speak up so easily w/o any fear.. 
y m i holding it back now? y can't i tell them straight .. wht's the problem. is it because m afraid they'll get mad? upset? or is it because i hab no hope in this frenship now? knowing tht they might all hab "expiry dates" .. like my previous frenships too.. the same frenship.. the bond .. tht made me think n plan about our future has now vanished.. outta ma mind... the bad inside me is constantly telling me tht noone can understand ur problems except you, urself.. and the good inside me says - jus open up, they'll understand. 

aloha!

m visiting my blog after a veryyyyy long time.. it feels alien to mi now lols.
it's 1.25 a.m now. listening to nicole's don't hold your breath. i can relate. tht's wht i gotta do. don't hold my breath. although it has been a disaster for me. the people whom i hab known for ages, whom i hab trusted ... has disappointed me. a lot. the past week has been like an open book, turning it's pages on its own, letting me look at the ugly hidden truths. i can't do a thing. n the more i think about it the more it scares me bout future. wht it beholds. but i guess the most scariest thing is - i don't have a plan. YET.